1. I have to leave this cutie every morning. (Case Closed)
2. I don’t get to pinch his cute cheeks every Monday thru Friday from 7:30 AM to 6:30 PM as a working mama, ever since Phil was less than four months old. Thanks USA for not giving new mommies better maternity leave benefits like the rest of the developed world.
3. I can’t breast feed him in public without strangers giving me stink eyes.
4. Or find a clean and private place to use the breast pump when I’m going out.
5. I live in New York City, land of pushy commuters, crazy drivers, stressful workplaces and unsympathetic strangers. I just want to spend more time with my baby, sheesh!
6. I never get a seat after work for my hour-long commute. I’m no longer pregnant, but I’m a working mama who barely sleeps and relies on napping on the train for repose.
7. I did not get enough advice from people who matter: nurses, doctors and therapists. Babies should sleep on their backs but no one teaches new mommies how to prevent their babies from developing flattened heads. Over 50% of babies in America now have flattened heads due to sleeping on their backs. PS: Helmets can’t correct flat heads, contrary to popular belief.
8. I want to be pregnant again but living in the city and working full time as a new mommy is too stressful. I don’t want to go through that cycle again, and have to miss two children at a time.
9. Maria Kang and other fat-shamers. What’s my excuse why I’m still overweight? I work 7.25 hours a day and come home to work 6 more hours before my baby finally sleeps. I don’t have time to exercise and melt away my pregnancy pounds. (Gained 44 pounds during pregnancy. Lost 24 of those pounds naturally over the course of seven months.)
10. I just feel like I can still do so much more for my little Phil and wish he would one day tell me that I’m the best mom ever. I hate external factors that take away my joy as a mommy, but I don’t hate being Phil’s mommy and wouldn’t give it up for the world. Mommy loves you and your rolls, Philly, now and forever. ❤